Too Long

Been stuck on your love for too long

You're the reason I listen to all these sad songs

You did me wrong I should have walked away

I just felt like I needed you too much

I just wanted you to stay

My heart's grown stronger but it's still weak

I've tried to convince myself that I don't care

But truth of the matter is I do

It breaks me to admit it but my heart beats for you

And sometimes I wish you still loved me too

You've moved on and it's all I want to do

I can't though it's like my heart's glued to you

I relive all the moments between you and I

Remembering the feelings that we shared kill me so bad

You fucked with my emotions

I never want to love again this is so sad

The fact that you're not mine drives me so mad

When I see you with another jealousy ensues

I wish you still cared so when I storm off you would pursue

I was nothing more than a pastime

I already knew

It hurts to wonder if I ever meant something to you

I miss your kisses and your laughter

It's too bad we couldn't have a happily ever after

I feel more alone than ever my life is a disaster

I wish these feelings could die a little faster

I swear all I want to do is move on to the next chapter

I've been stuck on your love for too long

And I'm so damn tired of all these sad songs

Obsession

This is not love anymore
This is an obsession
I need an intervention
To derive my attention
Somebody stop me
I'm being sucked into a black hole
I cannot stop
I will not stop
Not by my own will
I do not want to
I know I have to
But I am like Napoleon
I have to conquer
If I had you once
I can have you twice
I'll spit out lies if I have to
I do not want you for love
I want you for victory
Now it is no mystery
I am slithering my way to you
But everything is dark
It is this damn obsession taking toll of my life

Yours

The sky is changing

From blue to black

Standing beneath it

I hear the cracks

Trying my hardest

Don't want to look back

You make me weak

You make me lose sleep

I follow you anywhere

I'm one of your sheep

You have power over me

But you do not see

Maybe you're blind

Maybe you're scared

Of what would you find

Inside my mind

All I do is fool myself

Into thinking you care

Only thing we have in common

We breathe the same air

In love with your melancholic stare

My dear Cupid this isn't fair

I'm stuck in the rain

My heart aching with pain

I want to move on

But something tells me to stay

But it all hurts too much

Cause I just want to lay next to you

Till we grow old and decay

Whether you want it or not

My heart is all yours

I'm staying so I guess I've lost my way

Fuck It All

How can one person make you feel so much?

This is why I promised myself I'd never love

Fuck you for making me cry

I fucking hate you with all my soul

They say hate is not good for the heart

What heart though?

I don't have one

Your treachery poisoned it and so it died

My mind is twisted

My thoughts are evil

If you're ever alone with me be afraid

If you see me smile run

Run and don't look back

Because I can assure you I'll be right there

Running after you with a stake

A stake I'll put right through your heart

I want you to be incapable of loving

I want you to feel what I'm feeling

I want to look you in the eyes and see fear in them

I want to hear you begging for mercy

I want to feel your body shaking

You turned me into a monster

Hurting you is my only form of pleasure

All the tears streaming down my face

Fuck them all, fuck love, and fuck you too

State of Confusion

Thoughts in my mind

I can't put together verbally

I can write them down

While you recite the orally

Let me write the pain away

Let you see the pictures in my head

Show you how my heart has bled

You see it got broken and you know when

It never wants to love again and so it fled

Now everyone thinks I'm made of stone

I guess inside I'm dead

It's alright though

I won't love but I'll just live instead

All this shit is so cliché

But I have a couple of things I want to say

Once upon a time I begged for you to stay

That did more harm than good

Now I just want to go away

Defy the world and do things my way

Fly and touch the sky

Be free till forever always

Young and free and everything in between

At some point I must wake up to reality

But reality leads to fatalities

My mind is racing with too many thoughts

Nothing makes sense

The world's a wonder but so are you

I never want to fall again and I blame you

Take my hand and make me believe

That one day everything will be fine

Because I'm young but I'm running out of time

An Account of Events

There was smoke in the room

There were four then there were three

Then I left because it was the conversation of two

So I sat in a chair and looked at a magnified moon

And I rocked back and forth

The wind felt super good

There was music trying to escape a room filled with don'ts

Closed eyes in my own state of mind

I could hear the fainted voices of apologies going around

Memories hurt so I tried blocking away the sound

And the music had me envisioning robots in outer space

And the one of a devil with a different face

And these people are so blue

That they try to make happiness a race

So they pop artificial happiness created by man

Then they wear man made smiles till they fade away

Faded we were until I breathed in the fresh air

Then I looked at their faces and it made me quite sad

To see one of my own going down

But I'm not a superhero

Nights like these wash your pain away

I can't save the day so instead I closed my eyes again

Dreamed of a land far far away

Where I could take all of my broken friends

And dream all day listening to the waves

But it was soon over

We drove off into the night and it all ended there

Sparks

Nights are so dark
Baby come and light me up
Fly away with me
Make me feel sparks
I miss your special touch
I'm down for whatever
I just want to feel that rush
Let me whisper in your ear
I swear I'll make you blush
Remember all those times
I would beg for you to hush
Take me to the moon
You get me high like a balloon
Kiss me softly
Like there is no time for you to lose
You inspire me so much
And your body is my muse
I don't have everything you're looking for
But you know I can amuse
I'm that fire sign
I'll burn you up and make you mine
Passion so hell raising
I'll make you go ablaze
Let me remind you what amazing is
I can make you go insane
Make your heart skip beats
Like you're on some good cocaine
Except I'm better
'Cause I'm better for your brain
And I can hear that blood now
Rushing through your veins
Nights are so dark
Baby come and light me up 
Fly away with me
Make me feel those sparks